Yom Kippur starts tomorrow evening and I was hoping to spend the fast with real quality alone time. Instead, mum informs me that she'll be staying home from services this year. That kind of irritates me because I don't the day I spend on self-reflection ruined by her constant chatter. Mostly, she plans to pray but there are breaks. It's those breaks that I dread. Maybe she'll leave me alone. Last year, I modified my fast and went for a walk. I was able to concentrate better on the important things without the distraction. One thing that mum shared with me that really got under my skin, she told me she spoke with a rabbi about her difficulty walking to services. He told her that the most important thing was the fast and she should stay home. Okay, I get she has difficulties walking back and forth but a rabbi is a clergy person, not her doctor. Even more annoying is that she thinks his word is sacrosanct, it must be obeyed. Seriously, what does someone who isn't a medical professional know? Especially someone who isn't her doctor? Who died him and made him a higher power? Mum has this habit of giving over her thinking to someone in authority. Sometimes it's a good idea, other times not so much. This time I'm concerned that she may be giving over her thinking to someone who isn't her doctor. I'll admit I'm being selfish here because I want her out of the house for the day. I'm also concerned that she's not using her own judgement. Oh well you can't change someone set in their way.
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