Really Anxious

Hello Everyone:

Mom does not get how I feel about this interview. I am so anxious that I've practically talked myself out of the job. I was getting dressed this morning and told myself that the only reason they're meeting me is that I meet the minimum qualifications and they have to give a few minutes. Other than that I have no chance at this job. They'll find someone smarter and better than me. I can't afford (emotionally) to get excited. It's like why set myself up for more disappointment. That's the part mom doesn't get. She doesn't understand how I feel, how I can't deal with anymore rejection. I just want to give up. I can't keep trying, like mom tells me to do. Every time I say I want to give up, she tells me I'm making up excuses. She does not understand how angry and frustrated I am. No one seems to understand how much this is wearing on me. I can't be optimistic anymore. I'm so anxious that I'm ready to blow the whole thing off. Why doesn't anyone understand this?  Why can't mom or anyone else understand how I feel?  Of course no one gets how I feel. Everyone else has it easier. They're confident and know how to deal with high pressure situations. Me, I can't pull myself together without getting all panicked. I don't know what I'm going to do. I need the work and this job has career job written all over it. Still, something in the back of my mind says I don't deserve the chance.