Sad News

Hello Everyone:

Some sad news to report from the Brit BF. Late last week, his mother developed bed sores and had to be hospitalized. The doctors put her on a course of antibiotics and she seemed to be on the road to recovery. Today I get a message from the Brit, telling his mum took a turn for the worse. Later, we talked on the phone and he told that the doctor believed that given her age and dementia it would be best to let nature take its course. I feel sad for him and for the fact that I can't be with to support him. The best I do is send virtual hugs and be a long distance shoulder to cry on. I hate this separation.  I understand why he had to go back but that doesn't make it any better. I know I sound childish. I can't do the "stiff upper lip" thing very like he can. I'm not that way. I need to release all the frustration I have over being so far away. Music and writing about it help let go of the feelings. I know he's hurting inside.  I could hear in his voice today.  I wish I could make things better for him. All I can do is sit here, in California, and wait for news. I hope it's good news but reality says different. I've been thinking about how I would react if it were my mom. Sure, we have our differences and we fight but she's still my mom.  We have our good moments. I keep anxiously checking the notifications screen to see if there's anything from the Brit BF. Nothing, so far. I don't know what I would do without my mom. I don't need her the same I did when I was a child. There are a lot things she does to drive me up a tree but she still is mom. So I sit here, 5,000 miles away from my sweetie, hoping for the best and wishing I was there.