After my first two nights without mom in the house, I can honestly say I've never slept better or felt more relaxed. Well, almost more relaxed because she calls frequently which intrudes on my energy flow. Yesterday and today I've been footloose and fancy free. The energy flow has been positive for the most. What's preventing it from making better is that tomorrow is Valentine's Day and the Brit BF is away. Normally I could care about it: all the commercialism and everything else. However, this year I was looking to spending some time with him. Instead I have to settle for a phone or Skype call. at least I got him a nice card and a present that I hope he likes. I also hope it gets there in time. Being apart from him is what's depressing me right now. Mom calling for no reason other than just to call, intrudes on my mood. How would I spend my Valentine's Day with the Brit BF? Maybe a "lovers walk" followed by a stop at local cafe. Or maybe dinner and movie. Mostly, I just want one date with him. It's still for me to believe that he has affected so much. Something about him makes me want to bask in his warmth and charisma all the time. He's not perfect, no one is, he's just the right one, right now (or longer). Can I see myself spending the rest of my life him? Hard to say. I just that it feels wonderful to be him and I miss him terribly.
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