Instinct

Hello Everyone:

I got an email from the Sometime BF yesterday. He sounds more stressed than he’s been for the past few weeks. He’s mum hasn’t been well, he got into a disagreement with his supervisor, and his move is in the final stages.  I feel bad for him but there’s nothing I can do for him.  I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it all better. I just have to be patient and understanding, something I need to really work on. What helps is keeping myself occupied with the every day tasks. Also what helps is maintaining my physical exercise routine, meditating, and writing in the blog. Occasionally, checking in with him helps. I just texted him. Mum was kind of funny today asking me about his mum. The only thing I could tell her was that the Stage IV symptoms are creeping up on her.  What else could I say. It would be nice to report that the Sometime BF’s mum was miraculously restored to health but I can’t. I’ll be quite honest, I’ve thought about testing the dating waters but instinct says don’t do it. I’m listening to that instinct. Besides, the current state of the dating waters is turmoil. I also hate “putting myself out there” like that. I can put myself out there for professional reasons but for personal reasons, it’s more difficult. I really like the Sometime BF and don’t want to mess that up. So I just have to be patient and trust my instincts.