Hello Everyone:
A fairly quiet few days spent doing things aroundthehouseand lunch ata sis's house. It was my youngest nephew's belated birthday party so she invited mom and I over for lunch. The minion had some friends over but they weren't noisy. At least the birthday cake he got was good. Both sis and I have no clue about what to wear to the wedding. I've come to the conclusion that I genuinely don't care because I'm not the center of attention. I mean, conceivably I could wear a bikini and no one would notice. Okay, maybe not because it's an Orthodox Jewish wedding and bikinis are generally not acceptable wedding attire but you get my point. I was watching the Amy Winehouse documentary and there was a song that got me. I don't remember the title but it had something to do with a break up. It reminded me of the situation I'm in now with the Brit BF. Yes, we're not an official couple anymore but I still have strong feelings for him. I don't know if they'll ever go away. I may find someone else who sweeps me off my feet but I don't know if I can ever feel as strongly as I do for the Brit BF. He has this special undefinable quality that you don't find in just anyone. I just wish we would've had something to focus on. You know, relationship goals. I think couples need that to stay focused. I'm sorry to bore all of with this but did you ever break off with someone and not feel like you're fully over that person? I mean, it's not like I think about him every moment of every day. It's just that he's so deeply embedded in my conscious that it's hard to finally let go. I'm sure he's already moved on. Too focused on his professional goals to bother. Maybe that what he needs to do. Too bad because I always thought we could be good together. His loss.
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