In And Out Of A Mood

Hello Everyone:

This hot weather shows no signs of going away. Unbelievable. Just when I think, "finally cooler weather," it gets hot again. What is this some kind of cosmic joke. Anyway, enough about that and more about me.  This morning I was in my "I hate life" moods again. This is usually characterized by below rock bottom self-esteem and a general feeling of all is crap.  I usually get this way when I spend entirely too keep much on my own. I should get out more but I always I fee love an uninvited, unwelcome guest even when I am invited or it's a public event.  I need to get over myself. It's like I think "why do want me here?"  I guess someone likes my company or maybe I'm attending an event b cause, like everyone else in the audience, I'm there out of my own interest. I'm using like too much. Whatever the case may be, I should just learn to suck it up and get out.  Fortunately, this life is crap, I'm crap mood was short lived.  By early afternoon, it had dissipated and was replaced by my wanting to take a bat to my laptop. Bottom line, I need a new laptop. I'm so used to an Apple, that the more affordable Dell or Toshiba, with their PC platform, just will not work for me. However, that's what it is right now. I just hate the thought of importing all my files and changing them over to a PC platform  I would prefer to buy the more expensive Mac Air or new Mac Book but I just don't have the money for it. Ugh, now I'm back in my "life is crap" mode.  I'll figure out something.