No Such Thing As Lasting Happiness?

Hello Everyone:

In the last almost twenty-four hours, I've been feeling depressed.  The bf has been going through a difficult time with his work.  He was let go by the relatives he worked for.  Apparently, it wasn't such a shock because, according to the bf, the relative has some issues.  Fortunately, there's another opportunity on the horizon but that's not what's upsetting me.  What's upsetting me is the fact he's put down a deposit on a new apartment near his mom in South Orange County, California.  The reasons he gave were his mom is elderly and needs his help, less expensive, and better amenities, all perfectly valid.  It still depresses me that he'll be 2-1/2 hours further away and I won't see him as much.  That what hurts the most.  While he's assured me that nothing's set in stone, the fact that he gave the deposit tells me that he's planning to go ahead with the move.  It seems like the universe is conspiring to keep us apart for good or at least test our relationship.  I told him how I feel about the whole situation.  I just feel so helpless.  If goes ahead with the move I don't know if I could let him go so easily.  Our connection runs deep.  Once we started making love, those connections got deeper.  He may not be as sensitive to this but I feel it.  You can't help but having stronger feelings for a person once you've slept with him or her.  The thought of finding another Mr. Wonderful is scary.  I wouldn't know what to do or where to begin.  Truthfully, I was hoping he'd move a little closer, I told him as much.  The bf is the most amazing person I've been in a relationship with.  He's loving, good hearted, warm, caring, funny, in short, everything I could possibly want.  Why can't the universe understand this?  This isn't fair.  Just when I find my Mr. Right, it has to get kicked out from under me.  The bf makes me happy.  He keeps me sane.  He's not perfect by any stretch, no one is, but I don't care.  All I want is to have something that resembles lasting happiness.  It just seems that every time I find a little bit of happiness, it doesn't last no matter how tight I try to hold on to it.  I don't know what i'm going to do.  My feeling are all a jumble.

One final note, Tower Records still needs your help.  Please go to http://www.change.org and sign the online petition.  Also email Council Member Stephanie Reich at sreich@weho.org to let her know why this building should not be demolished to make way for another high-end mixed used development.