Hello Everyone:
Well my day has been going pretty good. This morning started off with a great run and then I got treated over breakfast to a YouTube clip of the song "All You Need Is Now." Apparently, all I needed to wake up this morning was that song and coffee. Got to have coffee. Needless to say that put me in the right frame of mind that's been carrying through the day. Got some grocery shopping done and now I'm talking to you.
A couple of things did irritate me this morning. The first, mom's constant catering to the little nephew. This woman spoils him so badly that he's become a precocious demanding brat. For example, this morning as we were driving to the market, I mentioned that I saw peaches on sale for .99 per pound. So mom has to mention that little nephew loves peaches. I didn't ask whether he liked peaches nor do I care but she gave me a dollar to buy a pound of peaches. Hey what do I care. It's not about the peaches it's about the fact that she caters to his every whim and expects me to do the same. She's the same way with the teenage niece and nephew on top of running after sis and apparently has made the BIL her higher power. Fortunately, they're older and seem to be immune to efforts to lavish attention on them. What this has done is create a real sense of resentment on my part. I deal with this by my making snarky and hostile comments The funny thing is she doesn't realize that the constant attention she lavishes on anyone in that family has created a negative environment. It seems that I can't escape a day without hearing about one or the other person. If I act disinterested mom takes it as a sign that I don't like them. Truthfully, I so sick of hearing about sis and her family or mom caving into little nephew's every whim that, yes, I can't stand them at all. The question is why does it bother me so much? It bothers me because I feel like I'm getting pushed aside, shut out of "family" life. It's to the point where I don't even consider myself a part of the family.
The second thing that bothered me this morning is mom over eager interest in the bf. She's constantly asking about him, what is he doing, where is, and why doesn't he come and visit. It seems like mom is inserting herself into my relationship and trying to push me out. Why does that woman have to always make herself the center of attention? Why can't she let others take the spotlight? I don't actively seek the spotlight, in fact I'm quite content to stay in the background. However, let me have something to myself, where I'm the center of attention. This relationship is one of those things. The bf mainly comes to visit me not mom or the rest of the "family." I really want to move out so bad.
No comments:
Post a Comment