Unreliable

Hello Everyone:

Yesterday was borderline insane.  The family came over for Chanukah dinner so I was busy running a last minute errand, laying out the table, help with the serving and cleaning up. The food and company were okay. The Sometime BF was supposed to come over but had to cancel out at the last minute. His mother has stage IV cancer and wasn’t feeling well. He texted me from the freeway, saying he had to turn around and go back. At least that’s what he said. For all I know, he could’ve been texting me from his apartment.  Needless to say I was wee more upset than I let on. Sis didn’t help matter when she blew it off as him “just making excuses.”  She went through two bouts of Non-Hodgkin lymphoma so you would think that she’d be more sensitive about it. He’s not off the hook either. His history with me isn’t a good one. He has/had this habit of pushing me away when things got too close.  I’m pretty sure he’s not making up the part about his mum’s illness because his older brother referred to it over dinner a few months ago. The everything else is still suspect.  As far as I’m concerned his still on probation with me.  In all fairness, he did say that getting together would be more difficult over the next several as his mum’s illness takes it course but part of me thinks it’s all bollocks. I think that this may be his convenient out of the relationship. He’s supposed to come over tomorrow but I’m not counting on him. Sometimes I think I should just get rid of him, find someone else.  Getting back together with the Brit BF is not really option, at least right now.  So right now, i’m  just goIng to get some much needed sleep and hopefully I’ll see things more clearly in the morning.