Open To Love And Forgiveness

Hello Everyone:

Yay. Normalcy again. Well almost normal, I had to work at home today but it was all good. I got the post I wanted to do last Wednesday up and life goes on. This morning I did a guided meditation and the theme was love and forgiveness. Letting love into your life, being forgiving of yourself and others. Love and forgiveness are hard concepts for me because they seem remote. They're vague concepts for me. I'm living with such deep seated negative emotions that it's hard to let go of them and be forgiving and open myself to love. Emotions like anger and resentment. They loom so large in my emotional landscape that they've embedded themselves firmly. So firmly that they're hard to remove. I don't know if I'm up to the task of opening myself to love and forgiveness. It sometimes feels like they define my existence. If I got rid of all the negative emotions or better yet, keeping them at bay, then who would I be?  An existential question. Who would I be if I was able to open myself up to love and forgiveness, let go of all that emotional weight?  It's a hard to fathom an existence right now. So for today I'll forgive myself for thinking I have to open myself to love and forgiveness all at once.