Emotional Gamut

Hello Everyone:

Coming off the wedding festivities. Thank goodness. So many emotions churning about: anger, loneliness, bordom, annoyance, and everything in between. I happy for my niece and I hope she and her husband have a nice life but it was all too difficult for me. The difficulty lies in my social ineptitude. I have a problem with mingling and making cocktail chit chat with people. My natural impulse is to hang back, not talk to anyone. That's exactly what I did at the wedding. Yesterday was another classic example, I spent most of the post-wedding gathering not saying much and nibbling on some food. In my defense, I was sitting at a table, directly across from some ladies who were having a private conversation in front of my face. No attempt to get to know me. It's not selfish, I thought it was rude to have an exclusive conversation in front of someone. The gathering itself was pretty boring, low energy. Even the bride and groom looked bored. Speaking which, I noticed they weren't making eye contact or interacting with each other. It might be from tiredness so I'm not going to make too much about it. Honestly, I think they each would rather be somewhere else with someone else. I know I wanted to be somewhere else. I shared with mom my thoughts on yesterday's gathering and typically, dismissed it and carried on with her thoughts.  Anyway, tomorrow stats a new week and back to normal. Yay